How does one go about explaining PPD to someone who has never been through it? Is there a difference between PPD and depression? How long can PPD hang around?
This is the task that I have faced lately and I am not certain that I was up to it. Obviously I am able to explain what my experiences have been but there are many questions that I have begun to realise that I don't understand.
What are the differences between PPD and depression? Can PPD transform into depression?
I know that I have been engulfed in this darkness for about 4 years. For the first two I didn't understand what was going on and I didn't seek help. So for just over the past two years I have been struggling to pull out of the darkness that has had this terrible grip on me. There have been steps forward and leaps backwards. I have tried several different combinations of therapies and medications. I am still not at a place where I can say that I have survived this.
I was asked about my fear of relapse . . . is this fear rational if I am under treatment? How can one relapse if PPD is different from depression?
I don't have any answers to these questions. I do know that my current treatment has lightened my life but has not defeated the darkness. I know that the anger has been replaced by sadness. I am aware that I have better concentration and motivation but it is still not anywhere near what it once was. I find that I am still easily overwhelmed and that I tend to push to the side things that I cannot cope with or find answers to. So while things are better, I still struggle many days.
When will I be able to say that I have survived PPD?