Lately I have been pondering getting rid of another tie to my past. Not because I have been fixated on the past but because it could help my family . . . my present.
I was married before . . . remember my ex-husband married Brad's ex-wife . . . and so now I have a beautiful engagement ring and wedding band that just sit in a box. Lately I have been thinking about selling them. Since Brad was laid on last June we could certainly use the money but that is not the only reason for pondering this.
I have begun to wonder why I still have them. It is not like I am ever going to pull them out and wear them . . . somehow that just seems to be in poor taste. I no longer have any emotional ties to the rings. I have never hide the fact that I have been married before and Little Miss knows that I have had at least two weddings. In fact, she has a picture of me on my first wedding day in her room because she loves my dress . . . as do I.
There are very few physical items that hold a strong emotional attachment with me. With the exception of furniture built by my dad or grandpa, a few pieces of artwork created by the kids and of course my rings given to me by Brad, I just don't feel the connection with things.
Perhaps it is time to rid myself of these ties to the past . . . while helping my family. Brad was shocked when I mentioned this to him . . . he has no plans of getting rid of his first wedding band. He told me that I didn't have to do this and that we can find the extra money we need someplace else.
Am I wrong for considering this? Should I feel more of a connection with these rings? Am I denying my past by selling them? All questions that have been running through my head.
I just keep going back to the fact that holding on to them is of no value to my life today . . . but selling them could be. Thoughts?